Drama but Not really

Well the party was last night(i.e. Saturday night,took me a min to finish this)...I ended up having to Dj so let's just say i couldn't walk around and mix and mingle. That can be a good thing. I was able to see everyone that came in. When we first arrived I saw E. E has always been a crush of mine since the first time I have seen her. Well this past week she erased me from her myspace. I didn't notice till right before the party. have we spoken?no So why was it that she erased me? I still have no clear. So when I entered the party I spoke to everyone and well she didn't speak. So I went into the other room to setup. It was only a few people at first and then people began to show up. I didn't know a lot of them and from the way they started to act when they started drinking that was a good thing. This one girl came with E,we will call her DST.


me and DST talk a lot and we are really cool. She is what I call a tomboi type. She just recently came out to me and a few others. Every time she goes somewhere she is always looking for someone new.I guess that's the fresh out the box thing. She was chillin with me and BFF. I got a text and my friend was outside parking her car. She wanted me to come get her. We will call her Jetta. Jetta is very nice, and beautiful and well I am a sucker for a big butt and a smile. We kind of fell into the friend trap. I think we are a little to deep to swim out of. I felt like I was going to have to protect a pot of gold when we walked in. Needless to say she was the cutest girl there and well I couldn't stop anybody from talking to her. I think in away I got jealous without even realizing it.


Now Country Dwas also there. Tell you it never gets easier having an ex as a friend. Anyway when she gets to drinking it turns into a whole new ball game wherever we go. She is liable to do anything and say anything. It is something that the crew has to watch very closely. But to the drama at hand.


So the girl that I had a one night 'fling" with came in with her girlfriend. This was probably one of the most awkward moments I have ever had in my life.Spoke to everyone around me and waved to me, no hug. Guess that would have been to obvious. Everybody that came with me spoke to her girlfriend. We neither spoke or looked at each other. It was like she knew who I was without knowing me. After some mingling the girlfriend ended up sitting on my left on the love seat with me playing with one of our friends dogs. i didn't even look in her direction. My 'fling" asked for the dog and as I gave it to her she caressed my hand. it was a moment of damn I wish I could have more and a moment of..are you trying to get me killed! It was over as quick as it started as they made a exit early. I was relieved to see them go.


As we ended the night I walked Jetta to her car. We talked about the people she had met and got hit on by. She didn't pay them to much attention. She was with me most of the night,which felt good. Made me feel like at least for awhile,that I was wanted. I opened her car door and accidentally touched her booty. side-note:she has one of the biggest asses I have ever seen! Anyway it was a nice feeling. Then she gave me a hug,a very good hug. I wanted to kiss her but I didn't.(man i have got to learn to be more aggressive).


I think the night for me was just full of emotions. i watched roommate make out with girls and get lap dances and everything. A part of me wanted to snatch her ass up. But of course I couldn't she is the ex. I don't like to see her do things that she shouldn't. Guess that is me trying to be a friend. Me and "fling made faces at each other while she was there. But it has been made known unless she becomes a single woman I can't or say I won't do anything else. (Lord give me strength cus she is so fine). The girl that threw the party has a way of knowing everyone and trying to bring them together for her good but not understanding that everyone can't hang with everyone. The night was filled with so many clicks and people not talking to each other. It seemed at times that all I did was play music,talk to bff and dst. Which honestly was just fine by me......