your embrace of my body runs thru my mind
I'm infatuated with your obsession
you left me wondering where did i go wrong?
i thought our friendship was so strong.
ranting
raving
realizing
reluctant.....
knowing i would never see you in that way again.
mad
angry
upset
at the thought that you don't want to hear my voice or feel my touch....
happy
thoughtful
delightful
anticipation
is what we had for each other at one time,when we knew we would share that embrace.
spoken
feeling
enticing
taste
of the newness of starting something fresh that was suppose to last and not be like other times.
embracing
touching
hugging
joining
our souls together as one to make beautiful music together.
tenderness
affection
enjoyment
adulation
i guess now they are just feelings and thoughts of you.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Death is Never Easy
So I in my lifetime have gone thru a lot of close deaths. My grandfather,my great grandmother,my great aunt and even my own mom. They all have came during times in my life when I was getting ready to move from one step of my life into the next. Kindergarten to Junior High, from having my mom to losing my mom, from junior high to high school,from high school to college and most recently from college into the real world. Death is in a way the start of a new beginning. Many times when someone in your family dies,someone is born to take their place. Well I just found out that one of the people that was there to mold me into the person that I would become is no longer with us. Her daughter who is the same age as me, holds her name and a lot of her attributes. She was always someone I could look up to and that I have very fond memories of. It is sad when anyone losses their parent ,it doesn't matter the age. I too lost my mom this month. It is always a sad time for me,and hard for a lot of people to understand. I hate lying about it but sometimes you don't want to hear the "well this is what they would want to do talk" or the "you must move on". It's your mother and you should be given the opportunity to grieve however you want.
My uncle told me a few years back that even in his older age sometimes he has to go see his mom and talk to her. I guess when people haven't gone thru what you have went thru it is hard for them to understand. So to my friend, I know you are strong and you have a lot of people to support you but just remember that that is your mom,you were the baby girl and you will always be the baby girl,until you meet your mom again. My prayers go out to you and ,I will keep those Westhaven dreams close to my heart.
My uncle told me a few years back that even in his older age sometimes he has to go see his mom and talk to her. I guess when people haven't gone thru what you have went thru it is hard for them to understand. So to my friend, I know you are strong and you have a lot of people to support you but just remember that that is your mom,you were the baby girl and you will always be the baby girl,until you meet your mom again. My prayers go out to you and ,I will keep those Westhaven dreams close to my heart.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
why is the world like it is
Brother Charged in 6 Memphis Deaths
by WOODY BAIRD
The Associated Press
MEMPHIS, Tenn. - A convicted killer recently released from prison was charged Saturday with fatally shooting his brother during an argument and then killing five witnesses, including two of his brother's children, police said.
Three remaining children were critically wounded in the attack last Sunday, but one of them was able to tell investigators about their assailant, an arrest warrant affidavit said.
Jessie L. Dotson, 33, was arrested on Friday , five days after the six bodies were discovered in a small rental house in a rough neighborhood called Binghampton. The affidavit said Dotson admitted to the killings.
"He tried to kill everyone in the house. He thought everyone in the house was dead," police Lt. Joe Scott said.
Dotson was charged with six counts of first-degree murder and three counts of attempted first-degree murder, police said. Among those killed was Dotson's brother, Cecil, 30, who was the father of all the children, ages 9 to 2 months.
Also killed were Hollis Seals, 33, Shindri Roberson, 25, and Marissa Rene Williams, 26, the mother of four of Cecil Dotson's children. Police identified the dead children as Cemario Dotson, 4, and Cecil Dotson, 2.
The surviving children remain under police custody at a children's hospital, but police declined to reveal their identities or their conditions.
One of the children "implicated Jessie Dotson as the person responsible," an arrest warrant affidavit said.
Police said the bodies of the victims were discovered Monday. The adults were shot with a semiautomatic handgun, while the children were stabbed with a knife or bludgeoned, police said.
The adults were found in the living room and the children were found in the two bedrooms of the residence and in the bathroom, Police Director Larry Godwin said.
Police said the bodies were discovered after relatives were unable to make contact with them, either by phone or in person.
Cecil Dotson and Seals each had extensive criminal records that include possession of illegal drugs and firearms. Cecil Dotson is identified in jail records as a known gang member.
Godwin said investigators at first thought the killings might have been some kind of "gang-related retaliation."
"I know the fear that gripped this community. I think we all felt it," Godwin said.
Records also show that Jessie Dotson pleaded guilty to second-degree murder in 1994 and spent 14 years in prison. He was released from prison in January. No other details were available.
District Attorney General Bill Gibbons said his office has not yet decided if it will seek the death penalty.
Jail records showed Dotson was not yet allowed visitors and no lawyer was listed for him. No court dates had been set.
in the world we live in today it is getting harder and harder to live a normal life. violence is on the up rise and senseless killings,are going on everyday. more so than ever though it is the violence against children. innocent children and young adults who unfortunately in a lot of the cases are just in the wrong place at the wrong time. i remember when i was younger i could be outside by myself for hours and not have a worry in the world. i lived in a good neighborhood,didn't have a worry in the world. if i had children today i would be scared to let them go outside or be scared for their lives even sending them to school. this is not a world i would have pictured for 2008. more people need to seek out the lord and get themselves together. there is to much going on in this world to not be involved in young peoples lives and trying to better the world. we need a CHANGE. and i guess more than ever i have become more educated on politics and social issues because we have a lot going on here to be concerned about in the US and more focus needs to be put into these issues. i pray for all of the families all across America not just in my home town that have lost someone . death is inevitable for everyone but no one should have their life cut short because of stupidity.
may everyone be blessed!
by WOODY BAIRD
The Associated Press
MEMPHIS, Tenn. - A convicted killer recently released from prison was charged Saturday with fatally shooting his brother during an argument and then killing five witnesses, including two of his brother's children, police said.
Three remaining children were critically wounded in the attack last Sunday, but one of them was able to tell investigators about their assailant, an arrest warrant affidavit said.
Jessie L. Dotson, 33, was arrested on Friday , five days after the six bodies were discovered in a small rental house in a rough neighborhood called Binghampton. The affidavit said Dotson admitted to the killings.
"He tried to kill everyone in the house. He thought everyone in the house was dead," police Lt. Joe Scott said.
Dotson was charged with six counts of first-degree murder and three counts of attempted first-degree murder, police said. Among those killed was Dotson's brother, Cecil, 30, who was the father of all the children, ages 9 to 2 months.
Also killed were Hollis Seals, 33, Shindri Roberson, 25, and Marissa Rene Williams, 26, the mother of four of Cecil Dotson's children. Police identified the dead children as Cemario Dotson, 4, and Cecil Dotson, 2.
The surviving children remain under police custody at a children's hospital, but police declined to reveal their identities or their conditions.
One of the children "implicated Jessie Dotson as the person responsible," an arrest warrant affidavit said.
Police said the bodies of the victims were discovered Monday. The adults were shot with a semiautomatic handgun, while the children were stabbed with a knife or bludgeoned, police said.
The adults were found in the living room and the children were found in the two bedrooms of the residence and in the bathroom, Police Director Larry Godwin said.
Police said the bodies were discovered after relatives were unable to make contact with them, either by phone or in person.
Cecil Dotson and Seals each had extensive criminal records that include possession of illegal drugs and firearms. Cecil Dotson is identified in jail records as a known gang member.
Godwin said investigators at first thought the killings might have been some kind of "gang-related retaliation."
"I know the fear that gripped this community. I think we all felt it," Godwin said.
Records also show that Jessie Dotson pleaded guilty to second-degree murder in 1994 and spent 14 years in prison. He was released from prison in January. No other details were available.
District Attorney General Bill Gibbons said his office has not yet decided if it will seek the death penalty.
Jail records showed Dotson was not yet allowed visitors and no lawyer was listed for him. No court dates had been set.
in the world we live in today it is getting harder and harder to live a normal life. violence is on the up rise and senseless killings,are going on everyday. more so than ever though it is the violence against children. innocent children and young adults who unfortunately in a lot of the cases are just in the wrong place at the wrong time. i remember when i was younger i could be outside by myself for hours and not have a worry in the world. i lived in a good neighborhood,didn't have a worry in the world. if i had children today i would be scared to let them go outside or be scared for their lives even sending them to school. this is not a world i would have pictured for 2008. more people need to seek out the lord and get themselves together. there is to much going on in this world to not be involved in young peoples lives and trying to better the world. we need a CHANGE. and i guess more than ever i have become more educated on politics and social issues because we have a lot going on here to be concerned about in the US and more focus needs to be put into these issues. i pray for all of the families all across America not just in my home town that have lost someone . death is inevitable for everyone but no one should have their life cut short because of stupidity.
may everyone be blessed!
you don't listen,birthdays and a whole lot of booty
Have you ever had those moments in your life that are well just really random. my week as a whole was random. one of my friends b-day was this week and we went to her b-day dinner cus i told her i would try to make it to at least one event. it was fun however there was one person there i did not expect. my former crush skull dated a girl....we will call her b-ball.b-ball is really cute and well didn't treat skull the best. i never thought i would get close enough to b-ball to tell what type of person she is,but i must admit a good first impression was made. i tried to get to know her as just her because sometimes you really can't go off what other people say and i am glad that my prejudgment about her being this not so good person was wrong.
she turned out to be really cool and i am glad that i met her. a lot of the people at the dinner i did not know which would have been awkward except for the fact that well we all were silly. being around people that are a lot like you can make any situation easier. One girl who will call light eyes,was really cute and we had a lot of fun talking. she sat across from me at dinner. later on in our night this family came and sat by us. now any other time i would have thought that the conversation going on at our table would not have been appropriate for the ears of little ones(most of the table was full of lesbians). but one of the mothers was actually talking to us. her sister actually was gay and she was in awe of us. we weren't your typical looking bunch of "gay" girls. everyone was dressed nicely ,nice hair and manner able. we weren't overly loud or rambunctious or anything like that.
she came over to the table and just told us how she wished her sister could find a group of girls like us who had their heads on straight and were doing positive things with their lives. it made me feel good to be judged for the good things in my life and not just always the negative. anyway the birthday girl decided we were going to the club. the club is called play and of course it is a gay club. i wasn't too happy about going simply because there was going to be someone there i didn't want to see....c. now i haven't talked to c in a very long time for so many reasons. and well i just didn't want to see her. i felt hurt a little by her because she owes me a lot of money and well i tried to get some of it back since i lost my job to help make ends meet and she pretty much blew me off. i knew she was going to be there and i just wanted to leave the whole situation alone. of course birthday girl knows about the situation and tried to blow it into a major thing and i must admit i said some things i shouldn't have and i apologize for that. but i did see c,she spoke to me i spoke back and that was that. i didn't want to ruin either one of our nights and i just did what the bigger person would do and left it alone. not something i would have done in the past and especially not with some of the people that i was with.
anyway moving along i finally got to spend some time with my bff which i always love. and her girl came along. we didn't do anything special or out of the ordinary just a day of running errands and we went to get something to eat. i love spending time with them cus i can just be myself ,not being judged or anything. it is always fun for me and i enjoy it. we always have the funniest talks especially about the past experiences that me and my bff have had since we had met each other. tonight was the first night i let the girlfriend know about the first time i met her. i was like dang she got a big booty for a white girl,lol. it was so funny but yet so true. but she is a really sweet girl and they make each other very very happy.
well that is all for this week stay tuned for more fun!
she turned out to be really cool and i am glad that i met her. a lot of the people at the dinner i did not know which would have been awkward except for the fact that well we all were silly. being around people that are a lot like you can make any situation easier. One girl who will call light eyes,was really cute and we had a lot of fun talking. she sat across from me at dinner. later on in our night this family came and sat by us. now any other time i would have thought that the conversation going on at our table would not have been appropriate for the ears of little ones(most of the table was full of lesbians). but one of the mothers was actually talking to us. her sister actually was gay and she was in awe of us. we weren't your typical looking bunch of "gay" girls. everyone was dressed nicely ,nice hair and manner able. we weren't overly loud or rambunctious or anything like that.
she came over to the table and just told us how she wished her sister could find a group of girls like us who had their heads on straight and were doing positive things with their lives. it made me feel good to be judged for the good things in my life and not just always the negative. anyway the birthday girl decided we were going to the club. the club is called play and of course it is a gay club. i wasn't too happy about going simply because there was going to be someone there i didn't want to see....c. now i haven't talked to c in a very long time for so many reasons. and well i just didn't want to see her. i felt hurt a little by her because she owes me a lot of money and well i tried to get some of it back since i lost my job to help make ends meet and she pretty much blew me off. i knew she was going to be there and i just wanted to leave the whole situation alone. of course birthday girl knows about the situation and tried to blow it into a major thing and i must admit i said some things i shouldn't have and i apologize for that. but i did see c,she spoke to me i spoke back and that was that. i didn't want to ruin either one of our nights and i just did what the bigger person would do and left it alone. not something i would have done in the past and especially not with some of the people that i was with.
anyway moving along i finally got to spend some time with my bff which i always love. and her girl came along. we didn't do anything special or out of the ordinary just a day of running errands and we went to get something to eat. i love spending time with them cus i can just be myself ,not being judged or anything. it is always fun for me and i enjoy it. we always have the funniest talks especially about the past experiences that me and my bff have had since we had met each other. tonight was the first night i let the girlfriend know about the first time i met her. i was like dang she got a big booty for a white girl,lol. it was so funny but yet so true. but she is a really sweet girl and they make each other very very happy.
ok and me and my boo had another fight. it seems like it is a on going struggle to make things work and i wonder everyday if this is good for either one of us. i want to be happy and i want boo to be happy but i am starting to wonder if being with each other is what will really make us happy. i am so confused and for once i don't know what to do.
well that is all for this week stay tuned for more fun!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
**PARENTAL ADVISORY** Golden Girl Claims Sex With Lil’ Kim?
i saw this posted on my one of my usual sites allhiphop.com and he had me like whoa....we all know about the exploits of "superhead " and her books about all the people and things she has done in the entertainment industry. i guess this new chick is trying to take over where superhead left off. warning it is not for those who have a weak stomach!!
DJ Golden Girl, a Philadelphia radio personality, is reportedly writing a tell-all book of her exploits in the music game. Read an alleged and explicit excerpt below:
Anyway, there I was, in a position I had never been in, laying in bed with the Queen Bee, ready to eat her p*ssy. We were in some exquisitely designed bedroom, where she was dressed in a thong…period. We were drinking Cristal, and I couldn’t believe I was about to have sex with a chick. I felt a little weird, although I do chix with chix parties, and have a series of chix with chix DVD’s. I have seen it in person at clubs, and have been asked by chicks to have it done, but I have never done it, or had it done to me by a chick.
But all that shit aside, Lil Kim and I were touching, rubbing, and before I knew it, we were playing in each other’s p*ssy with our fingers. Her a*s was so soft, I kept touching and grabbing it. I’d never felt anybody’s a*s as soft as mine, and her t*tties were huge and pretty. Her nipples got hard instantly as I licked all over them. She was rubbing my cl*t and grabbing my a*s.
She pulled me on top of her, and somehow made her cl*t press a button on mine. We were grinding cl*ts, and it felt unbelievably good. I figured she knew what she was doing, cause my p*ssy was dripping wet. We were both moaning, and I didn’t think she could feel my p*ssy juices, because as she slid her fingers between my lips.
When she felt how wet she had gotten me, she got a surge of adrenaline and said, “Oh my God, girl, you’re so wet, let me…” and she leaned up and grabbed my leg to motion me to turn my a*s to her face. I did, and we were in the sixty-nine position, with her on the bottom.
I said, “Let me get a towel to wipe some of the p*ssy juice off my a*s.”
She said, “No, I got you,” and started softly kissing my a*s cheeks.
Her lips were so soft, I felt like I was c*mming already. I was so excited. She rubbed and kissed my a*s, and I rubbed her cl*t, slowly inserting a little bit of my finger in her p*ssy. It was wet and tight. It felt strange, because I was feeling the inside of another woman’s p*ssy walls. I was nervous, and didn’t want to do anything stupid.
As she started letting her tongue tap on my p*ssy lips, I was freaking out. Her tongue was so warm and soft, flickering from the front to the back, then kissing and sucking my cl*t, all in one motion. I stopped with my finger, and opened her legs, to lick the creases of her thighs, while we were still in the sixty-nine position.
I started at her a*s, dripping spit down the crack, and my finger slightly rubbing it with the softest touch. She loved it. I then replaced my finger with my tongue all around her a*shole. I patted and licked, and felt her a*shole tighten up as she moaned louder. I slowly licked around her lips and started eating her p*ssy. I sucked her p*ssy, and licked the cl*t ever so softly. Then I started flicking it with my tongue a little harder and faster. She licked me the same way. I had p*ssy juice down to my ears. Her cl*t was really hard by now, so I knew I was doing it good. I started putting my fingers in her as I ate that p*ssy.
sounds like it would be a good read but can we really believe this is true??I'm sure lil kim will come out with something saying this is false but dang it was descriptive. but anyone that has read any literature on erotica can make something like this...only time will tell if it is false or true.
Update 3-10-08 Kim's people did put out a statement saying that this story was totally bogus(as i figured). She is also thinking about suing the DJ. Golden girl went on to say that it was fictional. When you are writing I think you should take more credibility for what you write. Sometimes you are holding someones life in your hand and it is not right to slander their name.
dang i got to step it up....
Ok i got this from one of my friend's blog and needless to say I like her thought I was doing better than this. I guess it is good that everyone can understand and read my blog but at the same time ,writers are suspose to be able to reach their audience on a 8th grade level. I got to do better lol. But I write from what is on my mind. I don't really put much thought into my subject matter. I don't ususally write about entertainment or anything like that really what is going on in my life. I guess I need to branch out a little seeing as how there isn't to much newness to my world because well right now I am stuck.....life would be easier if I could go back to those naps in elementary school.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)