just thinking

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Many times in life we try our best to please people. We do for them and we give give give. For some people it will never be enough. For others they will never forget it. But when you really care for someone and you show that to them it will make all the difference in the world. When I love I love hard. That goes for family,friends and relationships. I don;t take feelings for granted. When I want a relationship and I like you.....I really do like you. There are so many reasons and at times I can't say how I feel.

Like for instance with new new.....We don't talk like we use to ,for obvious reasons. But I really did like this girl. She made me smile when I was having a bad day just with the smallest text. I would be so excited to see her just to feel her touch,feel her lips. i use to dream about touching her lips. Sometimes she pushes my buttons and makes me feel like a cake boy....she does. But I care and I know she wouldn't ask if she didn't really need it. It's weird sometimes to know that she is going thru what I went thru at such a young age and I feel for her. I want her situation to have a better outcome then mine did and I pray for it daily for her. I want to show her the world but I can't. She won't let me....or should I say feelings won't let her. Or maybe in my small world I think that it was something there when it wasn't...I don't know ...all I know is my mind has been with her the last couple of months and it is hard to break. I try to play the cool role around her but the feelings are to strong sometimes. I get so dejected when I don't hear from her and well at the same time I don't want to be the one to do all the texting cus well....I don't want to seem like a lil sad puppy. But I hope and wish that she knows my feelings are real.

Yea I made a bad choice in the situation but at the same time I was pushed into it. The past is the past and sometimes letting the past linger in your future stops you from growing. A life lesson I am all to familiar with now. Feelings are a motherfucker and so is Love. So with all this being said I hope new new remembers how I made her feel. I hope that I made her feel good and like a princess. I tried my best with the inches that she gave me. And if I had to do it all over again I would. Life is about chances and she was my first chance. I glanced across the room and I wanted her to be mine. I couldn't see anybody else in the room when she was there. It was just me and her....I was told I would like her and well....my bf is never wrong in these things. But I know that I missed out on my angel........