The choosen few.....

Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Inc. is a fine organization built on strong morals and beliefs. I have many positive people in my life who are members and I feel that they all so what it takes to be a true woman of distinction. My roommate for one has a heart of gold anyway,but I see the work that she puts in to this organization that she loves. She does so much community service and service for our university thru her DST work. I have some friends that are about to cross that I am so proud of. I know that they will do great work as well.

My roommate has been such a positive influence on my life and a lot of the decisions that I have made. She has never turned her back on me for her sorority business and I to have never gotten upset when she had to go do the work that she had to do. I know that it is a life long commitment and I am proud of everything that she does. She is not just a letter wearer,she is a worker. They say that you should always show those that are with you how you feel while you can...so here are my words to those that are in my life no matter how big or how small a part you play.........

I just wanted to say thank you to those that are members of the Divine nine that strive to make their organizations wonderful and strive to use their resources to better our people and our communities. To my father .....the greatest NUPE I know....you strive to make me a better person and to truly stand on my own two feet ..and I am grateful for that. To my cousins those wonderful ladies of pink and green. Thank you for not being a part of the stereo type and showing that you make the letters and the letters don't make you....And to all my friends and family of DST you all are my backbone and you keep me motivated everyday and I love you!!!

Don't put all your apples in one barrel....

Ok I am at a crossroads in my life right now. This summer could pretty much be the end of my college career ,master's in hand(yyyyyeeeeeaaaa me!) But in the midst of all that I could lose my job to gain this master's. Basically my school only has certain classes at certain times. So basically it's either take these classes this summer or wait until 08 and take them next summer and not graduate until then. I work a 40 a week job and they are not taking to likely to My school schedule. Now school would only be for a month so I will have enough money to live comfortably if i had to quit ,and it would give me a whole month to find another job. But it is hard enough trying to get a job without also trying to do it and graduate at the same time. So basically it is either the job or my education. Of course my grandma and dad said to keep the job. Because basically they aren't going to help me financially. But then my heart and head tell me to walk out right now and say see ya!!!!! I honestly think I am about to hit career builder and the rest of the Internet and newspaper world hard and find a new job. I am sure there is a job out there that will allow me to start after graduation.....I just got to take my time and find it......

If I was a boy......

Ciara has this new song called "like a boy". It basically goes into what if a woman that was in a relationship did all the things that a man constantly gets away with on a daily basis,how would the man feel. It is always easy to play a role,which most women do. We give in to their demands and whatever they want. Then at the same time we get dogged out as they say.

I have always been one to be a Lil tomboyish....OK I'm lying i am straight up tomboyish. I wear men's clothes pretty much everyday. I mean it makes me feel comfortable. Now don't get me wrong I do wear dresses and skirts to but only when necessary. But back to the subject at hand....

Many times in relationships we fall victim to what we think is love. A lot of people go thru life and never know what real love is because we settle. The world has always had a view on what is perfect. What is perfect for the world may not always be perfect for you. I myself have been on both sides of the track. (i dated a girl once,no i am not gay,it was one time and i have not done it since). So I have been in both roles the male and female. I must say that women have their own tricks as well. Being in a relationship with a girl taught me alot about myself and my actions towards people. It's weird when your emotions can be seen thru another person. Many times when you are in a relationship a man will mask his feelings to keep his "masculine" side in tact. So you may honestly never know how he really feels. But with two women you are going to get full out emotion every time.

Women aren't good at masking their feelings. We let it all out! So what would you really do if you were a boy? A lot of women would sleep around just because they wouldn't be considered a hoe anymore. Some people just like sex ,but I still personally think it's nasty if a woman sleeps with like a 100 men . And personally I wouldn't want a guy that slept with a 100 girls either. But the world doesn't look down at the man. I don't know I think a lot of guys would change if women acted more like them. It would be pretty funny,lol.

Friends with .......

OK i am at a lost right now.....it has been close to five years since i have been in a relationship.....i mean the its just you and me no one else,yes if someone ask i am your girlfriend thing. I have been on to many dates to count and of course had those "special " friends. but that's just it i keep fallin into the "friend" category. I put it in God's hands a long time ago but now i know that I must make some moves on my part to. No one can find someone sitting in the house all the time,unless you are looking for an Internet freak(I'm not ready for the Internet hook-up yet). I have dated guys in the past from the Internet back in my black planet days.....but i was very young then and didn't pay attention to detail as much as I do now.

So alas I sit here kicking it with the girls which is always fun but still waiting for that romeo. I have started to go out more and spark up some interest(if you know me,you have seen the new hair on myspace and facebook) I am doing a lot of work on me. Which a lot of times people overlook themselves. I am finally comfortable with who I am and I know what type of person I am so that I can know what I could give to someone that i am in love you(took a long time to reach this point). Oh just on side night I have not "laid down" in two years.....so i haven't been wilding out in the streets either lol.....I am just going to have to work on this last step I got to....which is patience. (they say it is a virtue but dang why is it so hard,lol). But i refuse to get put back into the friends with benifits package ,either you want the whole show or nothing at all. I love myself to much to keep fallin for that!!!!