Hello World.....As i sit here watching another lame episode of Wilden out not wanting to go to work tomorrow my mind is racing. I have some very close friends in my life....that well always want what is best for me. Sometimes though they try to talk me into decisions that well they want and not necessarily what i want. I don't think a decision will mean much if it is not something that you come up with on your own.
Especially when it comes to matters of the heart. you should never let other people make decisions for you. Most of my friends because of past experience think that the decision that I made was not the best. The past is the past and if I can't move forward from that it will never work anyway. They just want me to be happy i know but it makes me feel like they don't really respect the decision I have made.
Like for instance my best friend. Everybody that is close to me has known fro awhile that i have been dating a girl and most know who the girl is. She was the one I didn't want to tell simply because I knew what her reaction was going to be. And sure enough she had that reaction. It made me realize that i did know her as much as i thought i did. And it kind of disappointed me because I just want her to be happy for me that I am happy and living the life that I want to live. I would never shun her or turn my back on her just because of who she is sleeping with. I don't to much care for the dude that she is dating but that is who she wants and I am happy for her as long as she is happy. I think he can be over controlling sometimes but oh well.
I guess it is taking some adjustment to get to the life that I want. I am kind of in my own little bubble at the moment and just trying to make myself happy. It gets hard sometimes but I know i can do it. I do have my Friends that I know that nobody what i do as long as i am not bringing harm to myself will Love me regardless.. and i love them for that. Friends how many of us have them!!
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