growing and learning

i have a best friend. we just recently got cool. we are going into a year of being around each other and i must admit they put a smile on my face that has never been there before. someone close to me recently told me that they could tell i had feelings even though i didn't want to admit it.


and well after careful reevaluation......yes yes i do. i constantly tell this person it is not like that. but me and them both know that it is there. i don't know if it is mutual in anyway but for me it is there. we have been thru a lot and i think i have made a good impression so far. it is so hard to find someone in your life sometimes that you can be just yourself around.

i don't have to pretend to be something that i am not and i can share anything with this person.(and not to mention the flirting is so much fun!!!) i want to go a step further,just a little step but i don't know if that will ever happen. this person has grown a lot since i have known them and well they make me proud. they get along with all my friends and we can genuinely have fun together doing some of the craziest things.

its crazy having feelings and not being able to tell the person ......maybe one day ill be totally open but until then ill be putting my fingers to the keys writing and typing of love.......