A night of Dancing,Upsets and White Kids???

The B.E.T. awards. It is the one night that all black people actually watch B.E.T. I myself really only watch now to see what is new or to see my favorite artist on 106 and Park and I will watch Baldwin Hills or Park or whatever lol and College Hill. The B.E.T. awards were different this year....Get me a new host!! We barely saw D.L. and the times he did show he wasn't funny...moving along Necie Nash and the white kids...it was random but halfway funny. i think it might not have been the best joke for the night considering they are trying to branch out. That way I chalk up to the Viacom people. Do they own Clean House to???


If u didn't know the white man owns us again,yes the white man I said it . B.E.T. is now owned by Viacom who also owns MTV. Now in the past year there have been a lot of changes including playing each other's rerun shows on each station and B.E.T. having all of these Awful spin off shows to try and match the awful shows on Mtv. Just play Music Video's Dammit!!!!. Anyway the B.E.T. awards gives us African-Americans a night to shine the light on ourselves. This year I must admit thanks to certain people was pretty good.


I didn't get a good intro,no Beyonce dance , no "Jennifer's" with the " I am telling you" intro.

It was Usher. Now don't get me wrong I love Usher..Confessions was my JAM lol, but this new album is not good to me. And his performance last night was lackluster at best. He had to use a moving floor ,Chris Brown can skate across the floor using his body, no mechanical help needed. When your background dancers are out shining you ,that is a problem. It seems that now that Usher is a dad and married he looks 20 years older then he did two years ago. It is amazing how stars who were doing bad,made great music and now that they are happy it is not as good. I guess with R&B pain is love right?? Moving along...ok by now you know I am from MEMPHIS ,M-Town hoe!!! lol Always repping , and I love the performance by Young Jeezy and Kanye West. Jeezy seemed to be a lil high and there but still got thru it. Kanye came out with his usual swag and set it off. It finally got the crowd hype.

Now my girl Keyshia Cole. You know I ride with K. Cole. She is a good writer and she can sing however last night,that was not shown. She didn't sound up to par ,it was like she couldn't hear herself and it was throwing her off. I don't know about that one K. Cole. But Lil Kim did look good lol. Then the show took a turn..........

Now we all know that Ne-Yo is a writing Genus. The man comes with hit after hit,not just for himself but for other artist as well. He has one of the hardest hitters in the game right now and does the work to back it up. His performance might have been one of the biggest shockers of the night. He danced ,he performed and he brought out the Jabberwakees. It was on-point. I was proud of the kid. It was interesting because after Usher performed they put the camera on him and he had the look that said "it was good, but I got cha lol and He did get him cus his show was a lot better lol. Then there was the young one.

Chris Brown aka. Chris Brizzle b.k.a the Human Talent show. Everyone was waiting to see what the young boy could do. As always he gave a great performance with a lot of energy.That boy shole can dance lol. The scene with him and Ciara was short but still very effective. Rhianna watch ya back lol.

And of course I am home grown from Memphis ,Tn so to see Al Green with all of his Love and Happiness was truly special. Love me some Al Green lol. And where did they dig up Maxwell with the 80's baby glasses?? He still sound good though. A. keys stole the show as usual by bringing out En Vogue, Swv and TLC. Those were my groups back in the day. Did I really just say back in the day??( I just got a year older with that phrase lol). Swv was a real shock. I thought they would never get back together even for 5 seconds. and the one girl looked like she didn't want to. Lil Wayne won viewers choice no surprise there. People are still trying to lick the "rapper" on that one. Nelly ,Nelly ,Nelly. Milk does do a body good. And yet again Ciara came out with the dance moves and ripped it.

Tonight was definitely about the performance and there were some good ones. The sound quality could have been better but all in all I think it was a good show!

Love peace and Hair Grease!!

Random Thoughts

1. Why is it that people pay so much attention to Myspace and Facebook status changes?If I am talking about you I will tell you.

2. Summer love is so refreshing isn't it?

3. Why is it so hard to find a job...even when you have two degrees?

4. Why can't people let go of things that they know are bad for them?

5. Why is it you can't be a mother or father to your children but get mad at the next that can and will take care of YOUR kids?

6. It is a shame i have to miss the Essence festival again this year.

7. Will Howard's Homecoming be as good as I feel it will?

8. Will my new love turn out to be the relationship I have wanted for so long?

9. Who would have though I would be happy for J.L. with another girl?

10. Why is it easy sometimes to let go of old friends? And hard other times?

11. I don't miss watching TV at all.

12. I want to write a small article section for either Essence or Vibe.

13. I want to visit New York and someone on the West Coast.

14. Do I want to go back to school again?

15. I don't miss talking to my family. Bad I know.

16. But I do miss my nephews and niece.

17. I love and hate my home city all at the same time.

18. I don't want to live in Nashville by any means.

19. I haven't been to church in months and really miss it.

20. There is more randomness to come.

Chatt-Town, Memphis, and the whole weekend in one day

Well this was suppose to be the weekend filled with work ,work and more work. The days of the red and khaki are ending for me. The moments are numbered and I am slowly counting down. I erased the Saturday moments to spend time with one of my new home girls. We will call her young B. Young B is cool. Always speaks her mind and doesn't hold back for anyone. I respect that about her. She always has a story to tell and for once in my life I enjoy listening to someone Else's antics that mirror mine so much it's unreal lol. She knows more about me then most. I can be myself around her which in this world is hard to find sometimes.

She is like the mirror image of my besti. She can hang with us even though she isn't the same age and her age doesn't matter. We kicked it yesterday to take the mind off of nupe phi nupe. A small trip but a much needed one. She got tat-tat-tatted up lol. I am afraid of the whole tat thing. Doubt I would ever get one. But I really did think about it yesterday. I got to see my play lil brother. Who at one point in life I thought would really be my brother in law. But that is a whole another story within itself. He has a girl now( for a minute I thought basketball would always be his girl). But he seems really happy and I am happy for him. He introduced me like I was important. Made me feel special lol. Of course he spoke to young B ,who was having flashback central while in the tat place. It was crazy how many people were in there. All different backgrounds looks and sizes.

Chatt in some ways reminds me of Memphis. Hood in some places nice and simple in others. It is like going from one world to another ,by just traveling down one street. So we spent the whole day in Chatt just having fun. It is amazing how you be together with a cool person and just have fun. On the way home I just got into my slow jam mix and just rode. Thinking about life and where I want to be by the end of the year. It is a look deep within inside me that I started at the beginning of last week,when I turned in my two week notice without even knowing where I would work or how I would survive when that last day came. Needless to say God shows up not when you want him to but when he needs to. And that happened that day. I stepped out on faith and he answered me. Because I knew he would cover me. And I am blessed to say that I love the Lord and everything that he is doing in my life. I am blessed with a new job and new friends. It is great to be me.

Love~Live~Life

All Around the World

I love this video. Hype Williams Always does great work. yet again Lil Wayne hit me with a good line "He heh, but still don't nothin' move but the money
So baby if I move then we move with the money ,Which is my favorite dish
But if I taste you that'll probably switch "

I ain't the biggest fan but he come with some good lines.

Defense Wins Championships

I will say it time and time again. They hated on my team. Only one person on the ESPN staff picked Boston. Boston even though they had the better record were the underdogs. No-one is going to beat a Phil Jackson coached team lead by KB24. Well,well,well,should I laugh now or wait till the salt is all the way in the wounds. No I am not a bandwagon fan,look at the picture that is over 5 years old people. I been riding with Pierce. I have always liked the Celtics. My dad was a Celtics fan. The only time we didn't go for the Celtics was when Magic played. I loved Magic Johnson. I didn't like a player that much again until Paul Pierce "the truth" arrived in Boston. Of course I know about Jordan,he is the greatest and I have plenty of Chicago championship hats and shirts. I lived thru a dynasty with him,so I have respect for what he did. And I also know what Kobe isn't and that is Jordan. Jordan found ways to score against the best defenses in the game. All those years Chicago didn't have the best defense,but they did have the best player who had other people that could make shots no matter who they were.

Kobe does not. Don't get me wrong they show moments of greatness but in one word it was never "consistent". You knew how Game Six was going to go when he came out attempting to shoot out the Celtics all by his-self. The old Kobe was showing his colors again. Then he backed off. And well needless to say the Celtics took that and ran with it. This was one of the worst blowouts in NBA history. Jordan might have lost but he didn't get blown out. Kobe is a great player and he will be a Hall of Fame inductee and eventually if they get the right players around him,as my friend J puts it the "Goons" he will get that championship without Shaq.And Phil Jackson. This man could have became the coach with the most wins in NBA history for Championships. He still sits at 9,simply because he did not coach well. It seemed besides talking about the refs and blowing whistles on the sidelines that he didn't do much. Even when they showed him in the locker room he was not the same Phil to me. Needless to say this was not the usual outcome that came with Phil Jackson in the finals. I mean come on who really would have bet against Phil?Especially with Doc coaching the other team.


But let's be honest BOSTON was the better team.Doc rivers did a great job. The man has always been a good coach but has never had a team like this. He got everybody since day one to buy into him and it paid off. This was a team last year who had no-name players and barely won 25 games. Of course they were going to be better but no-one expected a Championship. My roommate called it back in September. I wish we had bet some money. Paul "the truth" Pierce,Kevin "KG" Garnet, and Ray "Jesus Shuttlesworth" Allen. I'm proud of them for finally getting a ring. One of the best moments of that night to me was when KG walked up to Bill Russell and told him he wouldn't need one of his rings because he got his own. In the interview between them,(which i think was one of the best interviews of the season) Bill told him if with this team he never got a championship he would give him one of his rings..I almost cried. True sportsmanship and love for the game . You got to Love that.

Beauty in it's natural state

I got to see a old friend this weekend. Not for a long time unfortunately but for a minute. We went to junior high together and it has been close to 10 years since we have seen each other. She was always nice. She says I use to talk about her,but I don;t talk about people because I don't want someone talking about me. Anyway. She has turned into a beautiful young woman. That makes me happy. She has a nice girlfriend to which I;m always happy to see people happy in a relationship. She has dreads. They have always interested me but I don't think they are my style. Anyways,we chatted for awhile and caught up a little. We talk every week thru text and keep up with what is going on. She was the first person from Memphis I even told that I dated girls. So I have a lot of trust in her even though she doesn't know it. But I had been waiting on this meeting for a long time unfortunately we are grown and when I come to Memphis everybody can't stop their schedules for me. And I understand that and wouldn't want them to . So I have to wait till the next trip to really get a chance to sit down and chat. Hopefully I can make that happen before the end of the year lol. It's nice to have a person that you feel comfortable talking to and that can understand you and not be critical. And in her I have found that person.

Boys...will be Boys...I need a MAN

Ok so I went home this weekend and of course I had to see all my friends from high school. The Bff crew was in full effect. We didn't have our usual kick it moment because well everyone is grown now and has their own things going on. But we still try to see each other at least for a moment. So BFF came to the house and well we sat in the car and chatted for a minute. Of course I had Cd's for everybody lol. Anyway it was nice to see her and catch up because we don't talk much anymore and it's nice to know she hasn't completely turned her back on me,which made me happy.

Then their is the Sanders. he is my homeboy from back in the day. i think out of any of the males, I have the most fun with him. he always got something good to talk about lol. He and the roommate get along now which I am happy about. I didn't want that to become a problem. Anyways saw his new house for the first time . It is really nice. He is doing well for himself and I couldn't be happier for him. He is one of the people I miss most in Memphis. I really do.

Now to the one that is the topic of this post. A.D. He has made it a point to make our relationship all about sex for the last two weeks and this weekend was no exception. I don't know what is wrong with him but he wanted me to diss my company to go see him. This is not what I came here for and it is to why he didn't get to see me at all. He just kept pissing me off,sending funky texts and all that. Negro please! He said we slept together but honestly folks, I don't even remember it. That is not something you forget,especially when you see this person all the time. I'm like what the hell?? And that is all he seemed to want this weekend and I was a no go on that because I don't see him that way. I mean who forgets about the sex? If it was that bad that I forgot about it I definitely don't want to repeat it. So to you sir, don't text me again till you get your mind right.....moving along(vent over)

All in all the dudes are the same in Memphis. trying to be way more thuggish then they are. It is sad how men seem to get stuck in a label and don't know how to make their way out of it. One difference in my crew. Dressing nice is a must. How you present yourself means so much because for some people ,that is the only impression they get of you. So you better make it a good one!

Peace.

Chicken..weddings...and Girls

Well world I went back home to Memphis this weekend. It was a much needed getaway. Not thinking about work,bills or anything else that stresses me out on a everyday basis. I stayed at my aunt and uncle house which is always an experience every time i come home. They were happy to see us(me and the roommate). Everything seemed to be going well until I found out that my room was no longer my room. The children have moved back in and well needless to say ,I have no room anymore. But it was cool, I just need someone to lay my head.Well it was also my family reunion(which i knew nothing about). So the house was full of chicken,chicken and more chicken. And to two people who have been down on their luck,getting free food was an extra bonus. lol. I had so much chicken this weekend I really felt I was going to turn into a chicken,lol.

My uncle is catering now. So that is why it was so much chicken. It is nice to know that he is still working with what he loves. He has always been about chicken and is going to forever be about chicken. He has his own recipes and his own talent and it makes for good eating. I hope to one day be able to truly do what I love and still be able to have the life that I want. Nothing has stopped since the family business left and I am good with that. He also helps take care of my grandma,which I am grateful for because I could not do it on my own. So I thank God for family.

That night saw J. No baby this trip but it was nice seeing him. I'm glad that the three of us have mended our fences and can actually be around each other and not fight. It is a good thing. Plus it was nice to help him get out the house for a change and it not be a family function. Pretty much didn't do anything but family time the first night. Got to get that in every trip or heads will roll. By the way did u see the Celtics comeback the other night??More to come on that later....

Well Saturday comes around and we get up to go to the mall. Had to get the fits right for the occasion. A 30 minute trip to the mall(which hardly ever happens) and we were good to go. Went to my sister's house to see my dad. I haven't seen him face to face in almost two years. And we only stay 3 hours away from each other,something is wrong with that huh?Well with the cost of gas these days it might be another two before we see each other. Anyway it went well,he even gave my roommate a hug and a kiss. Which startled me . He never showed affection to anyone around me. HHHHmmmmm. So we move along to the wedding.

Now I knew this young lady from college. She is a Delta . Crossed with my roomie. Needless to say I usually don't go to the delta functions because I get left by myself. But I went to this one and I am glad I did. Not only did I get a good trip home but at the reception I saw a lot of people I had not seen in a long time. A.T. a good personal friend of the family as well as a Delta. My girl D. Track from high school. Had not seen her since we went on our separate ways to college. She is doing well just like everyone else and we spent most of the reception catching up on us and everyone else we talk to from high school. It is nice to know that everyone is doing well. I couldn't ask for more as a leader of my class. Then the music!!! We had all the Memphis throwbacks and it was cool to get "crunk" at least for a little second before leaving. I love my black people. We do know how to have a good time. lol

Now on Sunday was father's day and the big dinner. Finally got to see my sister and even more time with the niece and nephew. My sister and I finally got a moment alone and I told her about my bisexual life. To my surprise she already knew. In her words "I'm your sister" "if i don't know ,that would be bad on me". So there you have it. My siblings now know and don't care. In fact they love the girl that I am in love with. And that is all right with me. So that lifted a weight off my shoulder. And once she said that the way my dad was acting I think he knows to. He has never been a father that stopped me from doing anything as long as it didn't hurt me. He has always let us make our own decisions and for that I am grateful and well I think he is cool with my lifestyle to. Cus if sister knows,then I know he does.

So Memphis was cool , I might go back 4th of July and I am actually excited about it. More to come about the trip to the M!!!!

Rocking them Jordan's

Ok I have never really been a Jordan(shoe) fan but the song is hot. Nelly is coming with some fire on this album. I haven't been impressed with a lot of rappers lately. But I am in anticipation of the Brass Knuckles album. Check out the new video.





and check out that Ciara move oh my goodness!

NBA Basketball is fantastic!!!

It is going down this week. probably the best finals since my younger years. Definitely the best one since I have been in college. The two titans of the NBA this year. Number one in the east and west. The lakers handing everybody their heads in the playoffs. The celtics are battled tested and ready for anything. This is the time for Kobe to prove he can get a championship without Shaq. it is time for the big three in Boston to make their first trip to the finals and either put up or shut up. My money is on Boston. I don't see the K to the G letting this one slip out of his hands. This may be the one and only chance at greatness. Paul P. has been on lack luster teams with Boston before now and I think it is time to finish off the way they wanted to from the beginning of the season. Now don't get me wrong, the KOBE's are not going to let Boston walk over them. The regular season proved that Boston was the better team winning both times they met , but that was a team without Paul Gasol and a team that was still finding their way but winning.The first was November 23 in Boston, and the 10-1 Celtics beat the 7-5 Lakers 104-97. The second was December 30 in L.A., when the 26-3 Celtics beat the 19-11 Lakers 110-91.I say Boston will take it in 6. We will see how right I am starting Thursday night.

"Will the Celtics let Bryant fire away from long-range, and if so, will Bryant convert?
If the regular season is any guide, there's a championship in the balance."(Henry Abbott,ESPN)

Go Celtics!

picture of words

As I look at your smile all my worries fade away
The warmth of your seduction leading me on a new path of desire
The gloss of your lips has me thinking about grabbing you and, making love to you till we become
Wet with the fever of heat and bodies racing.
The temptation of your dark eyes sends a spiral of emotions thru my body.
It is as if they look deep into my soul and speak words unspoken to anyone else
Damn you got me going…going into the ecstasy of mind-blowing revelations of me and u
Even when you pout the smoothness of your skin wants me to embrace it with kisses from my
Lips…telling your emotions to run free.
Run free from those others who have left footprints behind for me to step into and to step into
Your love.
So blissful and needing it, is like a rush of wanting, wanting to be caressed, kissed, licked and rubbed.
Longing for that moment when two minds become one
And engage in a passionate moment.
All from the look of that picture
were your eyes meet, never to know in the real
If it is ever meant to be.

Hopelessly hopeless

Pussy Money Weed

Ok I am like the biggest hip-hop head and well there tends to be a song every now and then that I have to listen to everyday so i can get into the deeps of it. and well right now that song is coming from lil wayne.

peep it out....

Kanye West Flashing Lights

This is another verison of the Flashing Lights video. I think I like this one better. What do you think?


Kanye West Flashing Lights Video (Version 2) from RockBox on Vimeo.