If I knew Then What I know Now

Ok so needless to say 09 sucks so far. Good job at getting off to a good start. not! I have been looking at everything that has been happening to me and I must say that sometimes I wish I had a time machine to go back and correct things from my life with the knowledge that I have now. No I don't regret anything but at the same time if I could have had a inkling of the knowledge about life now ,then..i would have been the best!. I would have told my parents to take me more serious about that stock market game in 8th grade. Money Would not have been a issue now. i would have protested more about keeping in contact with my family then instead f not talking to them now. I would have came out a long time ago and probably would have my kids and husband and or wife now. Or at least a lot more experience on the wife side of things. I would have known to save my pennies a little bit more just in case a hard time like a recession came. I would have went to the school I wanted to go to ,and made the life I should have made instead of still doing what I wanted to do but not to the highest level I should have. So many would of could should of. Well that ends with this blog. I have been going thru a situation that should have never been and today i decided due to my health and the stupidity of the whole situation that it must end. For better or for worse it must end. Never let someone Else's opinion become your reality. I let that slip from my mind the last couple of days. I got to get myself back. No I will not say 'swag" because the definition of that is not what people use it for these days. No slang here "mane". S.J. is prime for something beautiful. And as my pastor says look to the future "You look much better than you look right now" . yea the future me is bright. Remember to put on your shades.....