you don't listen,birthdays and a whole lot of booty

Have you ever had those moments in your life that are well just really random. my week as a whole was random. one of my friends b-day was this week and we went to her b-day dinner cus i told her i would try to make it to at least one event. it was fun however there was one person there i did not expect. my former crush skull dated a girl....we will call her b-ball.b-ball is really cute and well didn't treat skull the best. i never thought i would get close enough to b-ball to tell what type of person she is,but i must admit a good first impression was made. i tried to get to know her as just her because sometimes you really can't go off what other people say and i am glad that my prejudgment about her being this not so good person was wrong.

she turned out to be really cool and i am glad that i met her. a lot of the people at the dinner i did not know which would have been awkward except for the fact that well we all were silly. being around people that are a lot like you can make any situation easier. One girl who will call light eyes,was really cute and we had a lot of fun talking. she sat across from me at dinner. later on in our night this family came and sat by us. now any other time i would have thought that the conversation going on at our table would not have been appropriate for the ears of little ones(most of the table was full of lesbians). but one of the mothers was actually talking to us. her sister actually was gay and she was in awe of us. we weren't your typical looking bunch of "gay" girls. everyone was dressed nicely ,nice hair and manner able. we weren't overly loud or rambunctious or anything like that.


she came over to the table and just told us how she wished her sister could find a group of girls like us who had their heads on straight and were doing positive things with their lives. it made me feel good to be judged for the good things in my life and not just always the negative. anyway the birthday girl decided we were going to the club. the club is called play and of course it is a gay club. i wasn't too happy about going simply because there was going to be someone there i didn't want to see....c. now i haven't talked to c in a very long time for so many reasons. and well i just didn't want to see her. i felt hurt a little by her because she owes me a lot of money and well i tried to get some of it back since i lost my job to help make ends meet and she pretty much blew me off. i knew she was going to be there and i just wanted to leave the whole situation alone. of course birthday girl knows about the situation and tried to blow it into a major thing and i must admit i said some things i shouldn't have and i apologize for that. but i did see c,she spoke to me i spoke back and that was that. i didn't want to ruin either one of our nights and i just did what the bigger person would do and left it alone. not something i would have done in the past and especially not with some of the people that i was with.

anyway moving along i finally got to spend some time with my bff which i always love. and her girl came along. we didn't do anything special or out of the ordinary just a day of running errands and we went to get something to eat. i love spending time with them cus i can just be myself ,not being judged or anything. it is always fun for me and i enjoy it. we always have the funniest talks especially about the past experiences that me and my bff have had since we had met each other. tonight was the first night i let the girlfriend know about the first time i met her. i was like dang she got a big booty for a white girl,lol. it was so funny but yet so true. but she is a really sweet girl and they make each other very very happy.

ok and me and my boo had another fight. it seems like it is a on going struggle to make things work and i wonder everyday if this is good for either one of us. i want to be happy and i want boo to be happy but i am starting to wonder if being with each other is what will really make us happy. i am so confused and for once i don't know what to do.

well that is all for this week stay tuned for more fun!