national blog month

OK so this is national blog month....i have been slacking on writing everyday so i am going to try to go without missing a day from this day forward for the whole month. sometimes there are so many thoughts going on in my head that well...i forget what to write hell i forget what to say and by the time i get to the keyboard it is gone. but hopefully I can pull it all together for you good people.

I did a lot of thinking this weekend. I had some alone time to just sit and well think. To many times life is going at warp speed and we don't take a second to just sit back and take it all in. I sat and looked out my window and thought about how this year has slipped past and well...i did not accomplish what i wanted to. Yes I got my degree but that was just part of the plan. Didn't get the job I wanted,don't have the relationship I wanted,and I am still in Murfreesboro feeling like I am going backwards instead of forwards. But today is a new day. I let the world in to me a lil. Yes everyone in my online world now knows the other side.....the girl side. It is time. Time to spread my wings and fly. If i am going to date a girl they have to know that I date girls.....Simply enough. It is out there now so we will see what happens. It will only be up for a limited time because well I don't want to answer questions unless it is what is my number and what time are we going out?

I have met some really nice people this year but ....for so many reasons it hasn't worked out, with anyone. I try and I try but failure seems to be getting the best of me. I want someone to appreciate me for who I am and not what I can give them. Yes as my best friend tells me i am the "spoil a chick" type. I give them whatever their little hearts want. But in return....I don't get the simply things I want. And that is going to stop. I am tried of not getting what I want. I want to be happy,and I don't ask for much.

So I am on the dating hunt and the job hunt. looking...searching.....behind every nook and cranny looking for that one in both categories.It is time to do me.