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i am who i am. to know me is to love me.....i am trying to become the person god wants me to be.......

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Breaking UP..........

My nights are starting to get as interesting as my days. Last night C dub decided to lay a bit of new information on me....she kissed her ex. Not just any ex though,the Love of her life. She still has feelings for him and anyone close to her knows that because well she tries to hide it but it doesn't work. Anytime he texts her or comes by her job she gets so overjoyed with happiness,and well to someone who was trying to be with her it is a low blow. It is difficult to date someone and never feel like you have all of them. Anyway back to the kiss....now kissing him was not the issues,the issue is that he is married. Yea I said it MARRIED. Now of course in a kiss there are two parts to it so I hold him accountable for his lion share of it as well. But I know she knew better. She says that she wanted to tell me because we weren't hiding anything from each other anymore and well I was happy that she told me,but at the same time after we had gotten into a fight about things it maybe wasn't the best time to tell me.

And of course I had already asked if it had went down and she had told me no. So yet again I got lied to and what after the fact at that. I asked when I was playful about it so I wouldn't get mad. But then I thought about it,why get mad?I don't have any control over that aspect of her life anyway. And so be it it seems I never will be a part of it again,because well I have learned somethings:
1. Once someone uses you they are going to continue to do so if you you let them.
2. Once a liar typically always a liar.
3. Relationships are what you make them. Having one side work and the other work will never allow the relationship to grow.
4. People seldom will treat you how you treat them.
5. Being the good guy does not always put you out on top.

There I said it. In the situations I have been dealing with lately , has made me change,I don't know if it will be for the better but I am changing......

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