Delta Sigma Theta Sorority Inc. is a fine organization built on strong morals and beliefs. I have many positive people in my life who are members and I feel that they all so what it takes to be a true woman of distinction. My roommate for one has a heart of gold anyway,but I see the work that she puts in to this organization that she loves. She does so much community service and service for our university thru her DST work. I have some friends that are about to cross that I am so proud of. I know that they will do great work as well.
My roommate has been such a positive influence on my life and a lot of the decisions that I have made. She has never turned her back on me for her sorority business and I to have never gotten upset when she had to go do the work that she had to do. I know that it is a life long commitment and I am proud of everything that she does. She is not just a letter wearer,she is a worker. They say that you should always show those that are with you how you feel while you can...so here are my words to those that are in my life no matter how big or how small a part you play.........
I just wanted to say thank you to those that are members of the Divine nine that strive to make their organizations wonderful and strive to use their resources to better our people and our communities. To my father .....the greatest NUPE I know....you strive to make me a better person and to truly stand on my own two feet ..and I am grateful for that. To my cousins those wonderful ladies of pink and green. Thank you for not being a part of the stereo type and showing that you make the letters and the letters don't make you....And to all my friends and family of DST you all are my backbone and you keep me motivated everyday and I love you!!!
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Don't put all your apples in one barrel....
Ok I am at a crossroads in my life right now. This summer could pretty much be the end of my college career ,master's in hand(yyyyyeeeeeaaaa me!) But in the midst of all that I could lose my job to gain this master's. Basically my school only has certain classes at certain times. So basically it's either take these classes this summer or wait until 08 and take them next summer and not graduate until then. I work a 40 a week job and they are not taking to likely to My school schedule. Now school would only be for a month so I will have enough money to live comfortably if i had to quit ,and it would give me a whole month to find another job. But it is hard enough trying to get a job without also trying to do it and graduate at the same time. So basically it is either the job or my education. Of course my grandma and dad said to keep the job. Because basically they aren't going to help me financially. But then my heart and head tell me to walk out right now and say see ya!!!!! I honestly think I am about to hit career builder and the rest of the Internet and newspaper world hard and find a new job. I am sure there is a job out there that will allow me to start after graduation.....I just got to take my time and find it......
If I was a boy......
Ciara has this new song called "like a boy". It basically goes into what if a woman that was in a relationship did all the things that a man constantly gets away with on a daily basis,how would the man feel. It is always easy to play a role,which most women do. We give in to their demands and whatever they want. Then at the same time we get dogged out as they say.
I have always been one to be a Lil tomboyish....OK I'm lying i am straight up tomboyish. I wear men's clothes pretty much everyday. I mean it makes me feel comfortable. Now don't get me wrong I do wear dresses and skirts to but only when necessary. But back to the subject at hand....
Many times in relationships we fall victim to what we think is love. A lot of people go thru life and never know what real love is because we settle. The world has always had a view on what is perfect. What is perfect for the world may not always be perfect for you. I myself have been on both sides of the track. (i dated a girl once,no i am not gay,it was one time and i have not done it since). So I have been in both roles the male and female. I must say that women have their own tricks as well. Being in a relationship with a girl taught me alot about myself and my actions towards people. It's weird when your emotions can be seen thru another person. Many times when you are in a relationship a man will mask his feelings to keep his "masculine" side in tact. So you may honestly never know how he really feels. But with two women you are going to get full out emotion every time.
Women aren't good at masking their feelings. We let it all out! So what would you really do if you were a boy? A lot of women would sleep around just because they wouldn't be considered a hoe anymore. Some people just like sex ,but I still personally think it's nasty if a woman sleeps with like a 100 men . And personally I wouldn't want a guy that slept with a 100 girls either. But the world doesn't look down at the man. I don't know I think a lot of guys would change if women acted more like them. It would be pretty funny,lol.
I have always been one to be a Lil tomboyish....OK I'm lying i am straight up tomboyish. I wear men's clothes pretty much everyday. I mean it makes me feel comfortable. Now don't get me wrong I do wear dresses and skirts to but only when necessary. But back to the subject at hand....
Many times in relationships we fall victim to what we think is love. A lot of people go thru life and never know what real love is because we settle. The world has always had a view on what is perfect. What is perfect for the world may not always be perfect for you. I myself have been on both sides of the track. (i dated a girl once,no i am not gay,it was one time and i have not done it since). So I have been in both roles the male and female. I must say that women have their own tricks as well. Being in a relationship with a girl taught me alot about myself and my actions towards people. It's weird when your emotions can be seen thru another person. Many times when you are in a relationship a man will mask his feelings to keep his "masculine" side in tact. So you may honestly never know how he really feels. But with two women you are going to get full out emotion every time.
Women aren't good at masking their feelings. We let it all out! So what would you really do if you were a boy? A lot of women would sleep around just because they wouldn't be considered a hoe anymore. Some people just like sex ,but I still personally think it's nasty if a woman sleeps with like a 100 men . And personally I wouldn't want a guy that slept with a 100 girls either. But the world doesn't look down at the man. I don't know I think a lot of guys would change if women acted more like them. It would be pretty funny,lol.
Friends with .......
OK i am at a lost right now.....it has been close to five years since i have been in a relationship.....i mean the its just you and me no one else,yes if someone ask i am your girlfriend thing. I have been on to many dates to count and of course had those "special " friends. but that's just it i keep fallin into the "friend" category. I put it in God's hands a long time ago but now i know that I must make some moves on my part to. No one can find someone sitting in the house all the time,unless you are looking for an Internet freak(I'm not ready for the Internet hook-up yet). I have dated guys in the past from the Internet back in my black planet days.....but i was very young then and didn't pay attention to detail as much as I do now.
So alas I sit here kicking it with the girls which is always fun but still waiting for that romeo. I have started to go out more and spark up some interest(if you know me,you have seen the new hair on myspace and facebook) I am doing a lot of work on me. Which a lot of times people overlook themselves. I am finally comfortable with who I am and I know what type of person I am so that I can know what I could give to someone that i am in love you(took a long time to reach this point). Oh just on side night I have not "laid down" in two years.....so i haven't been wilding out in the streets either lol.....I am just going to have to work on this last step I got to....which is patience. (they say it is a virtue but dang why is it so hard,lol). But i refuse to get put back into the friends with benifits package ,either you want the whole show or nothing at all. I love myself to much to keep fallin for that!!!!
So alas I sit here kicking it with the girls which is always fun but still waiting for that romeo. I have started to go out more and spark up some interest(if you know me,you have seen the new hair on myspace and facebook) I am doing a lot of work on me. Which a lot of times people overlook themselves. I am finally comfortable with who I am and I know what type of person I am so that I can know what I could give to someone that i am in love you(took a long time to reach this point). Oh just on side night I have not "laid down" in two years.....so i haven't been wilding out in the streets either lol.....I am just going to have to work on this last step I got to....which is patience. (they say it is a virtue but dang why is it so hard,lol). But i refuse to get put back into the friends with benifits package ,either you want the whole show or nothing at all. I love myself to much to keep fallin for that!!!!
Friday, March 30, 2007
Going to a white school
I am going to keep this as PG as possible,although the situation caused for more than PG actions....Well as you can tell from the title I go to a white school..and no i am not white. I work at a college apartment complex...where 99% of the residents of course are college students. Now I am what most students would call a "old head". I am in grad school and don't do to much of the partying atmosphere anymore. Anyway one of the NPHC frats(if you want to know what that means email me) thru a cookout at our apartments. Now I am one of the managers so I had to stay and supervise. Now they did have their speakers out and everything at the pool,and I told them to get it moderate...and they did ,they did everything I asked of them so I had no issues....but then came the phone calls. " I cant study it is to loud!!!!" " I can't watch my movie it is to loud!!!" Now on any given night the white students ride around on top of their cars...throw cans everywhere and i have loud parties all night long. One night the African-American students want to have something,it is such a big problem. It pissed me off that I was made to stop their event but the white people get to do whatever they want whenever they want. I am tired of jumping hoops for kids who have no self-control and consider themselves better than me because of their race.
Man sometimes I just want to walk into the office and say fuck-it I'm quitting. I don't like the fact that they feel they can have their way anytime they want to. If you want it to be quiet every night so you can study why would you move into an apartment complex that is near a college campus that is full of college students? Think about that decision before you make it. Everyone in college parties at sometime or another. Everyone does not go to sleep at 8 o'clock at night. I am just pissed beyond belief right now,and when you work for "the white man" you will never get anybody to see your side. And I am sorry if this came off offensive but after some of the things that were said to me last night.....I could care less
Man sometimes I just want to walk into the office and say fuck-it I'm quitting. I don't like the fact that they feel they can have their way anytime they want to. If you want it to be quiet every night so you can study why would you move into an apartment complex that is near a college campus that is full of college students? Think about that decision before you make it. Everyone in college parties at sometime or another. Everyone does not go to sleep at 8 o'clock at night. I am just pissed beyond belief right now,and when you work for "the white man" you will never get anybody to see your side. And I am sorry if this came off offensive but after some of the things that were said to me last night.....I could care less
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
To be Greek or Not to be Greek
Hello World!!!
It has been a minute(work is killing me!!!!!) this blog i have been contemplating on writing,simply because I don't want to offend. I was raised by a fine man of Kappa Alpha Psi (1911,you know whats up). I know a lot about the Greek life. My family has a member of every organization in it. I have always been taught the finer points of being Greek and it's importance. I do not want it to seem like I am a no it all because I know since I have not crossed anything there is A LOT I don't know. Well anyway in undergrad I did try to cross something. Unfortunately a very sad incident happened and halted all those plans. So I graduated in 04 still not Greek.
Many of my family members and friends I look up to in such a positive manner are Greek. I see what it has done for them and I the positive impact they make in the community. ( Shout out to 1908 and 1913). Well on to the present, I still want to be Greek even though i am on the other side of 24 now(man i feel old). But now my decision seems to be swaying in a different direction then what it was in undergrad. Some of my friends feel I am just trying to be like them and some of my family thinks I am doing it for all the wrong reasons. It's like if you say you want to be one thing for a period of time. If you change your mind it is a bad thing or you are not being "real". People can change their minds about a lot of things in life. Why can't they change which organization they would like to be a part of?
Both organizations I have looked at in their own ways show that they are doing the positive things....the things that they stand for. I have just grown over them years and one does not seem to be the fit for me anymore. I don't know if I will ever get a chance to do the grad chapter thing. Maybe I will never be Greek. But I wish I could have the free will to make the decision and not be so judge for it. But maybe that is something that because I am not Greek I don't understand...........
It has been a minute(work is killing me!!!!!) this blog i have been contemplating on writing,simply because I don't want to offend. I was raised by a fine man of Kappa Alpha Psi (1911,you know whats up). I know a lot about the Greek life. My family has a member of every organization in it. I have always been taught the finer points of being Greek and it's importance. I do not want it to seem like I am a no it all because I know since I have not crossed anything there is A LOT I don't know. Well anyway in undergrad I did try to cross something. Unfortunately a very sad incident happened and halted all those plans. So I graduated in 04 still not Greek.
Many of my family members and friends I look up to in such a positive manner are Greek. I see what it has done for them and I the positive impact they make in the community. ( Shout out to 1908 and 1913). Well on to the present, I still want to be Greek even though i am on the other side of 24 now(man i feel old). But now my decision seems to be swaying in a different direction then what it was in undergrad. Some of my friends feel I am just trying to be like them and some of my family thinks I am doing it for all the wrong reasons. It's like if you say you want to be one thing for a period of time. If you change your mind it is a bad thing or you are not being "real". People can change their minds about a lot of things in life. Why can't they change which organization they would like to be a part of?
Both organizations I have looked at in their own ways show that they are doing the positive things....the things that they stand for. I have just grown over them years and one does not seem to be the fit for me anymore. I don't know if I will ever get a chance to do the grad chapter thing. Maybe I will never be Greek. But I wish I could have the free will to make the decision and not be so judge for it. But maybe that is something that because I am not Greek I don't understand...........
Monday, March 12, 2007
Not in the mood
I haven't really been in a blogging mood. There is so much going on inside my world and my Lil head. It is hard to let it all out in words sometimes. I have a lot of life changes going on. Some good ,some bad,some confusing as hell. Some of what is going on I may never write about.....somethings people need not know. A lot of my friends are pregnant and getting ready to bring a new life into the world. I know personally I am not ready for that but I am very happy for them. Maybe they will teach me some of those mother lessons so I will be prepared. Some are having girls,some are having boys. Some just found out so the jury is still out on them. I have Friends and family members getting married. Weddings are wonderful and the ones I have been to have been story-book fairy tales. I have found out that some old friends have gotten married as well and are flashing some pretty big jewelry lol. The job is well the job. I can't say that I am 100 percent happy but I am just blessed to even have a job at all. I guess ill update in a Lil more detail when I feel that I can put it all into perspective as far as me in general goes......
Weddings are beautiful
I went home to Memphis this weekend for one of my high school classmates weddings. We went to college together so we have remained in contact with each other over the years. Her wedding was something out of the fairy tales or off TV. Ice sculptures, table settings that were cloth (and cloth on the chairs) The punch bowl at the reception was made out of ice!!! Then there was her now husband. He was always one of the good guys. Quiet but firm. Good head on his shoulders,always treated her with respect. What every girl dreams for and she is living it. They are moving far away because he is in the navy and they are going where he will be stationed. I will miss her dearly but I know she is going to have a wonderful new life. The wedding colors were beautiful ...brown and lavender. The bridesmaids dresses stitching was unbelievable and her wedding dress was flawless. She even had a orchestra playing at her wedding ceremony. There were a lot of friends from high school and college Her sorors(she is a delta) and his bruhs(nice to have someone that understands Greek life to share that with you). It was just unbelievable!!! She had a table full of gifts,and ill just say that my friend has very good taste in what she wants. (Tiffany and Co. was one of the places she registered).
At the reception she had two beautiful cakes,two buffet lines on each side of the room and computer screens that showed all of their wedding pictures. Spoiled yes isn't every girl in some way. Spectacular yes...if you know her you would expect nothing less. Beautiful ....her wedding and her. They had that love that you can instantly see forever in. Whenever they talked about each other you could see the wedding already being played out. He had a daughter before he met her and let's just say...step mom is so loved. They were dancing at the wedding and you could tell that the little girl loved her and that this was right. This was lined up in the stars perfectly. She had a DJ from one of the radio stations in Memphis. A nice sized dance floor. Her husband when giving his toast cried and cried...it was so beautiful...had my whole table in tears!!Each table got two bottles of bubble to pop. I was like are you serious!!!! It was just wonderful ....I can't even really put it all in words. You just had to be there. It was the Perfect Wedding!!!
At the reception she had two beautiful cakes,two buffet lines on each side of the room and computer screens that showed all of their wedding pictures. Spoiled yes isn't every girl in some way. Spectacular yes...if you know her you would expect nothing less. Beautiful ....her wedding and her. They had that love that you can instantly see forever in. Whenever they talked about each other you could see the wedding already being played out. He had a daughter before he met her and let's just say...step mom is so loved. They were dancing at the wedding and you could tell that the little girl loved her and that this was right. This was lined up in the stars perfectly. She had a DJ from one of the radio stations in Memphis. A nice sized dance floor. Her husband when giving his toast cried and cried...it was so beautiful...had my whole table in tears!!Each table got two bottles of bubble to pop. I was like are you serious!!!! It was just wonderful ....I can't even really put it all in words. You just had to be there. It was the Perfect Wedding!!!
Friday, March 2, 2007
A wonderful Day
Today is so much more Sunny and wonderful then the first day of March. It is not all that warm but still beautiful nevertheless. I am so blessed to still be alive and living my life. March is going to be a month of new beginnings for me. I am going to be picking my last classes of grad school(if the school sticks to the script), I just started a savings account(trying to get my grown woman on lol), and my car insurance has went down(yeeeaaa 25!).
It's looking good for the home team. I am also going to start looking for a job. I don't plan on being in Tenn for to much longer so I am trying to stack as much bread(money) as possible so that I can be financially stable(at least a little bit before I move. I am just looking to make the rest of 2007 as blessed and beautiful as I possibly can. It's hard out here in these streets sometimes(lol trying to sound hood). I am excited,one of my classmates wedding is next week. It is the first one I am going to and I am thrilled about it. I love this girl!! We went to college together and have remained friends through the years,which is sometimes hard when it comes to girls. I know I will probably see a lot of people I haven't seen in ages, which will Be exciting ,do a little catch up and do a little chatting. Well that's it for now but i am sure ill be back later to blog some more!!!!(probably like the next hour,lol)
Tyler Perry and What's Done in the Dark
Well yesterday was a droopy day. It rained no stormed all day long. I was at work ever so tired and wanting to sleep! (You know you can sleep good when it's raining). Anyway I had cooked dinner the night before because me and my roommate were going to see the new Tyler Perry play "what's Done in the Dark"!. I was thinking man why did it have to rain on the day we were going!. Anyway my roommate has been in a mood lately and I don't know why I was hoping we could at least have some piece this one night.
But I got off from work,ran home to get ready. The show starts at eight,is all the way in Nashville(which is like 30 min from where I stay). So go home get so fresh and so clean,sit down for a minute eat and then we are on our way. Nashville has some of the worst parking when you are trying to go to a show. I was like dang it is raining and we are going to be soaked trying to walk from the parking spot. But by the grace of God as soon as we got to Nashville,it was no rain!!!! I was like thank you!
So we got to the show 15 minutes early(not on CP time for once) and we had time to sit and get comfortable get a program(which i do not understand why they have to be 5 dollars). So the so begins promptly at 8(I love when things start on time don't you!)It was so awesome! The main theme of the show basically was that you think that you are getting away with things but everything comes to the light eventually. You can never get over on someone for ever. God always knows what you are doing at all times anyway so you are definitely not fooling him. The cast was excellent and did a super job with the singing. I would definitely recommend the show if it is coming to a show near you. And maybe you can give Mr.Brown some Vaseline for those ashy knees lol.
But I got off from work,ran home to get ready. The show starts at eight,is all the way in Nashville(which is like 30 min from where I stay). So go home get so fresh and so clean,sit down for a minute eat and then we are on our way. Nashville has some of the worst parking when you are trying to go to a show. I was like dang it is raining and we are going to be soaked trying to walk from the parking spot. But by the grace of God as soon as we got to Nashville,it was no rain!!!! I was like thank you!
So we got to the show 15 minutes early(not on CP time for once) and we had time to sit and get comfortable get a program(which i do not understand why they have to be 5 dollars). So the so begins promptly at 8(I love when things start on time don't you!)It was so awesome! The main theme of the show basically was that you think that you are getting away with things but everything comes to the light eventually. You can never get over on someone for ever. God always knows what you are doing at all times anyway so you are definitely not fooling him. The cast was excellent and did a super job with the singing. I would definitely recommend the show if it is coming to a show near you. And maybe you can give Mr.Brown some Vaseline for those ashy knees lol.
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