I miss you

*sigh* this is the week I dread out of the month. My mom's birthday is on 0ct 7,she has been gone now from me for 11 years. It still hurts as if she just left me yesterday. I haven't been sleeping. I feel like my life is in shambles. I just don't know what to do right now. And it is sad because I have no-one to talk to. No-one that understands the pain that I feel. This is all i can type right now without crying.............