Are you living or just existing?

Went to the movies this past weekend for the first time in a very long time. Saw the new Tyler Perry film "The Family that Prey's". In the movie one of the characters asked "Are you living or just existing?". Makes you think doesn't it. Sometimes I feel like I am doing a little of both. If the money is rolling in ,then I am living. Enjoying life,traveling and not worrying about anything. On the other hand 90% of the time I am existing. Just going day by day not reaching out for anything. I don't like the life I lead. In the sense that I am not working where I want to work and not living where I want to live. In certain situations it is my fault. In other instances there are people holding me back.

I want ,what I want. I want to be happy at work doing something I love. And I want to be happy in my life and love. I don't think that is to much to ask for.In so many instances we focus on just trying to survive day to day instead of reaching for our goals. I am in the process of reaching and stepping out on faith. That's right faith. God has a plan for my life and I plan on living it out. Even if that means going back to school ,that's right a third degree. Some might think I am crazy but I know what I want to do that will make me happy and that is what I want to do. Working with people and helping them with their problems is what I aim to do. And I think I am good at it.

People get paid everyday to have people sit on their couch and tell all their secrets. Maybe it is time for me to open up my couch. So many possibilities for this thinking mind of mine.