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i am who i am. to know me is to love me.....i am trying to become the person god wants me to be.......

Friday, March 30, 2007

Going to a white school

I am going to keep this as PG as possible,although the situation caused for more than PG actions....Well as you can tell from the title I go to a white school..and no i am not white. I work at a college apartment complex...where 99% of the residents of course are college students. Now I am what most students would call a "old head". I am in grad school and don't do to much of the partying atmosphere anymore. Anyway one of the NPHC frats(if you want to know what that means email me) thru a cookout at our apartments. Now I am one of the managers so I had to stay and supervise. Now they did have their speakers out and everything at the pool,and I told them to get it moderate...and they did ,they did everything I asked of them so I had no issues....but then came the phone calls. " I cant study it is to loud!!!!" " I can't watch my movie it is to loud!!!" Now on any given night the white students ride around on top of their cars...throw cans everywhere and i have loud parties all night long. One night the African-American students want to have something,it is such a big problem. It pissed me off that I was made to stop their event but the white people get to do whatever they want whenever they want. I am tired of jumping hoops for kids who have no self-control and consider themselves better than me because of their race.

Man sometimes I just want to walk into the office and say fuck-it I'm quitting. I don't like the fact that they feel they can have their way anytime they want to. If you want it to be quiet every night so you can study why would you move into an apartment complex that is near a college campus that is full of college students? Think about that decision before you make it. Everyone in college parties at sometime or another. Everyone does not go to sleep at 8 o'clock at night. I am just pissed beyond belief right now,and when you work for "the white man" you will never get anybody to see your side. And I am sorry if this came off offensive but after some of the things that were said to me last night.....I could care less

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

To be Greek or Not to be Greek

Hello World!!!

It has been a minute(work is killing me!!!!!) this blog i have been contemplating on writing,simply because I don't want to offend. I was raised by a fine man of Kappa Alpha Psi (1911,you know whats up). I know a lot about the Greek life. My family has a member of every organization in it. I have always been taught the finer points of being Greek and it's importance. I do not want it to seem like I am a no it all because I know since I have not crossed anything there is A LOT I don't know. Well anyway in undergrad I did try to cross something. Unfortunately a very sad incident happened and halted all those plans. So I graduated in 04 still not Greek.

Many of my family members and friends I look up to in such a positive manner are Greek. I see what it has done for them and I the positive impact they make in the community. ( Shout out to 1908 and 1913). Well on to the present, I still want to be Greek even though i am on the other side of 24 now(man i feel old). But now my decision seems to be swaying in a different direction then what it was in undergrad. Some of my friends feel I am just trying to be like them and some of my family thinks I am doing it for all the wrong reasons. It's like if you say you want to be one thing for a period of time. If you change your mind it is a bad thing or you are not being "real". People can change their minds about a lot of things in life. Why can't they change which organization they would like to be a part of?

Both organizations I have looked at in their own ways show that they are doing the positive things....the things that they stand for. I have just grown over them years and one does not seem to be the fit for me anymore. I don't know if I will ever get a chance to do the grad chapter thing. Maybe I will never be Greek. But I wish I could have the free will to make the decision and not be so judge for it. But maybe that is something that because I am not Greek I don't understand...........

Monday, March 12, 2007

Not in the mood

I haven't really been in a blogging mood. There is so much going on inside my world and my Lil head. It is hard to let it all out in words sometimes. I have a lot of life changes going on. Some good ,some bad,some confusing as hell. Some of what is going on I may never write about.....somethings people need not know. A lot of my friends are pregnant and getting ready to bring a new life into the world. I know personally I am not ready for that but I am very happy for them. Maybe they will teach me some of those mother lessons so I will be prepared. Some are having girls,some are having boys. Some just found out so the jury is still out on them. I have Friends and family members getting married. Weddings are wonderful and the ones I have been to have been story-book fairy tales. I have found out that some old friends have gotten married as well and are flashing some pretty big jewelry lol. The job is well the job. I can't say that I am 100 percent happy but I am just blessed to even have a job at all. I guess ill update in a Lil more detail when I feel that I can put it all into perspective as far as me in general goes......

Weddings are beautiful

I went home to Memphis this weekend for one of my high school classmates weddings. We went to college together so we have remained in contact with each other over the years. Her wedding was something out of the fairy tales or off TV. Ice sculptures, table settings that were cloth (and cloth on the chairs) The punch bowl at the reception was made out of ice!!! Then there was her now husband. He was always one of the good guys. Quiet but firm. Good head on his shoulders,always treated her with respect. What every girl dreams for and she is living it. They are moving far away because he is in the navy and they are going where he will be stationed. I will miss her dearly but I know she is going to have a wonderful new life. The wedding colors were beautiful ...brown and lavender. The bridesmaids dresses stitching was unbelievable and her wedding dress was flawless. She even had a orchestra playing at her wedding ceremony. There were a lot of friends from high school and college Her sorors(she is a delta) and his bruhs(nice to have someone that understands Greek life to share that with you). It was just unbelievable!!! She had a table full of gifts,and ill just say that my friend has very good taste in what she wants. (Tiffany and Co. was one of the places she registered).


At the reception she had two beautiful cakes,two buffet lines on each side of the room and computer screens that showed all of their wedding pictures. Spoiled yes isn't every girl in some way. Spectacular yes...if you know her you would expect nothing less. Beautiful ....her wedding and her. They had that love that you can instantly see forever in. Whenever they talked about each other you could see the wedding already being played out. He had a daughter before he met her and let's just say...step mom is so loved. They were dancing at the wedding and you could tell that the little girl loved her and that this was right. This was lined up in the stars perfectly. She had a DJ from one of the radio stations in Memphis. A nice sized dance floor. Her husband when giving his toast cried and cried...it was so beautiful...had my whole table in tears!!Each table got two bottles of bubble to pop. I was like are you serious!!!! It was just wonderful ....I can't even really put it all in words. You just had to be there. It was the Perfect Wedding!!!

Friday, March 2, 2007

A wonderful Day


Today is so much more Sunny and wonderful then the first day of March. It is not all that warm but still beautiful nevertheless. I am so blessed to still be alive and living my life. March is going to be a month of new beginnings for me. I am going to be picking my last classes of grad school(if the school sticks to the script), I just started a savings account(trying to get my grown woman on lol), and my car insurance has went down(yeeeaaa 25!).
It's looking good for the home team. I am also going to start looking for a job. I don't plan on being in Tenn for to much longer so I am trying to stack as much bread(money) as possible so that I can be financially stable(at least a little bit before I move. I am just looking to make the rest of 2007 as blessed and beautiful as I possibly can. It's hard out here in these streets sometimes(lol trying to sound hood). I am excited,one of my classmates wedding is next week. It is the first one I am going to and I am thrilled about it. I love this girl!! We went to college together and have remained friends through the years,which is sometimes hard when it comes to girls. I know I will probably see a lot of people I haven't seen in ages, which will Be exciting ,do a little catch up and do a little chatting. Well that's it for now but i am sure ill be back later to blog some more!!!!(probably like the next hour,lol)

Tyler Perry and What's Done in the Dark

Well yesterday was a droopy day. It rained no stormed all day long. I was at work ever so tired and wanting to sleep! (You know you can sleep good when it's raining). Anyway I had cooked dinner the night before because me and my roommate were going to see the new Tyler Perry play "what's Done in the Dark"!. I was thinking man why did it have to rain on the day we were going!. Anyway my roommate has been in a mood lately and I don't know why I was hoping we could at least have some piece this one night.

But I got off from work,ran home to get ready. The show starts at eight,is all the way in Nashville(which is like 30 min from where I stay). So go home get so fresh and so clean,sit down for a minute eat and then we are on our way. Nashville has some of the worst parking when you are trying to go to a show. I was like dang it is raining and we are going to be soaked trying to walk from the parking spot. But by the grace of God as soon as we got to Nashville,it was no rain!!!! I was like thank you!

So we got to the show 15 minutes early(not on CP time for once) and we had time to sit and get comfortable get a program(which i do not understand why they have to be 5 dollars). So the so begins promptly at 8(I love when things start on time don't you!)It was so awesome! The main theme of the show basically was that you think that you are getting away with things but everything comes to the light eventually. You can never get over on someone for ever. God always knows what you are doing at all times anyway so you are definitely not fooling him. The cast was excellent and did a super job with the singing. I would definitely recommend the show if it is coming to a show near you. And maybe you can give Mr.Brown some Vaseline for those ashy knees lol.